Musings of a 6/2 Splenic Manifestor

Trista - 6/2 Splenic Manifestor - 41 years old Today is the day I was initiated into human design 9 years ago in 2010 by John Martin. I haven't talked about it with anyone for a very long time as I realized part of the awakening process is letting go of every idea of who you think you are. But a few weeks ago, I ran into a woman in Tiruvannamalai, India who gave me a quick reading and re-ignited something inside. Besides reminding me and encouraging me to step into the full expression of this powerful aura I have, she told me to speak. She told me I'm here to bring spirituality to my tribe. That feels true, and there is so much more grounding in reality that needs to happen before I can be a teacher. A few days later my beloved came across another message from a random stranger who knew I had a mole on my breast in the exact place that it was, and he said to speak. And then a couple days ago a friend did a spontaneous healing on me with my de-ceased father and she remo...

My ancestors came this morning as a cathedral of trees dancing in the wind. Waking up with a familiar heaviness, body still weak and exhausted after 10 hours of sleep, the mind wonders how much longer I have to endure this purging and healing process to be free. I get up, go pee and just sit in the chair of my friend’s bedroom where I'm staying and look out the sliding glass doors. I close my eyes, go within and find out what's under this pain. Time to burn! It's not easy to sit with the onslaught of body intensity, but I remind myself to turn back, again and again to what never changes, to what is unaffected by all of this. The awareness goes back and forth from the stillness of the heart to the discomfort of body/mind. The pain in my heart grows more intense and my attention goes to it. It becomes more clear, this is not about trying to quiet anything down and escape to the absolute, this is time to meet this thing. I remember what my therapist Randy Hold​ taug...