Musings of a 6/2 Splenic Manifestor

She is learning to welcome herself back Home fully with the divine guidance of the dear ones. Welcoming in parts of herself that have been ignored and neglected for many lifetimes. She hones in on the ability to stop and tune in to this abandoned "little one" inside as the clarity of the mechanics of karma is revealed. As the fractured ego is welcomed in and seen, heard and felt more than ever before, the dense energy trapped in the vehicle is transmuted and the heart is opened. With each cycle of contraction; collapse of the body, confusion in the mind, pain in the heart, the gap of time between the trigger "out there" and the recognition that there is no such thing as out there gets shorter. The trigger is simply the little one wanting to be seen, heard and felt and when she is given attention, she can begin to relax.   We are becoming master alchemists and it is Pure Grace. This tender innocence that is herself as a little one has been calling ...

Mars in Cancer is frozen in his tracks. Mars is the planet of action, the warrior who wants to forge ahead and win no matter what. In Cancer he is waylaid by the unfamiliar and heavy waters of emotions. He is overwhelmed and can’t seem to take action the way he thinks he should. He has repressed emotions and he doesn’t understand why they are there or what to do with them. There is deep fear that if he exposes his soft underbelly, it will surely lead to death, for himself and his family. And so he does everything he can to avoid these energies within. This memory of death is deep in his DNA from many lifetimes of having to “man up” and just “do it” because that is what he was taught. Being vulnerable has not served him in the past. Cancer rules the mother. It symbolizes the receptive divine feminine way of being, and it rules the Heart. Mars in Cancer is being asked by spirit to stop, to surrender and to learn how that feelings are a secret superpower. They are here to gui...

Trista - 6/2 Splenic Manifestor - 41 years old Today is the day I was initiated into human design 9 years ago in 2010 by John Martin. I haven't talked about it with anyone for a very long time as I realized part of the awakening process is letting go of every idea of who you think you are. But a few weeks ago, I ran into a woman in Tiruvannamalai, India who gave me a quick reading and re-ignited something inside. Besides reminding me and encouraging me to step into the full expression of this powerful aura I have, she told me to speak. She told me I'm here to bring spirituality to my tribe. That feels true, and there is so much more grounding in reality that needs to happen before I can be a teacher. A few days later my beloved came across another message from a random stranger who knew I had a mole on my breast in the exact place that it was, and he said to speak. And then a couple days ago a friend did a spontaneous healing on me with my de-ceased father and she remo...

My ancestors came this morning as a cathedral of trees dancing in the wind. Waking up with a familiar heaviness, body still weak and exhausted after 10 hours of sleep, the mind wonders how much longer I have to endure this purging and healing process to be free. I get up, go pee and just sit in the chair of my friend’s bedroom where I'm staying and look out the sliding glass doors. I close my eyes, go within and find out what's under this pain. Time to burn! It's not easy to sit with the onslaught of body intensity, but I remind myself to turn back, again and again to what never changes, to what is unaffected by all of this. The awareness goes back and forth from the stillness of the heart to the discomfort of body/mind. The pain in my heart grows more intense and my attention goes to it. It becomes more clear, this is not about trying to quiet anything down and escape to the absolute, this is time to meet this thing. I remember what my therapist Randy Hold​ taug...